If I were a smart person — but oh it is abundantly clear that I’m not a smart person — I would have spent far less of the past week reading comments on right-wing blogs. I would have instantly blocked the anti-choice Twitterer who heckled me. I would have gracefully accepted the fact that sometimes boyfriends are busy with other projects. I would have fallen asleep each night at a reasonable hour.
Instead I read comments, followed a link to a website full of Christ-inspired hatred, picked a fight with my partner and stayed awake until ungodly hours indulging in black fantasies wherein my children set out to navigate a rope bridge without me and then slipped uncatchable into a chasm.
More to the point, if I were a smart person I would have immediately requested a stop-gap supply of medicine to hold me until my precious shipment makes it through customs from Canada. As has been previously established I am not a smart person. I am instead a stupid, pig-headed, cheap fool who believes the pretty fantasy that a day or two on a half-dose (or no dose at all) will make no difference despite the abundant evidence to the contrary I’ve seen in myself and others.
Maybe next time I’ll be smarter.
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As someone who’s spent the last week horribly depressed, hating myself, failing to sleep, having horrific dreams that range from terrible (where I kill everyone, including my children) to simply comforting (Where I only kill myself), I sympathise a lot. Skipping meds is bad. x.x
Get to the doctor, Tzivya. Asap.
I will concede that there are web sites with misguided “Christ-inspired hatred”. However, Christ does not inspire hatred. In fact, quite the opposite is true. Whether one believes the teachings of Christ or not, an objective review of the his teachings clearly reveals he does inspire or condone hatred. Christ is the most accepting and non-judgmental figure in human history. The fact that some people chose to pervert his teachings to manipulate and control others, or hide there own deep seeded desires, is not the fault of Christ or Christianity. Christ never sought out the righteous, in fact his disdain for religious leaders well exceeds yours or that of your readers.
The attempt to categorize or create a hierarchy of sin, with “sexual immorality” at the top of the list is absurd and contrary to the teachings of Christ. Your criticism of American Christianity is well deserved; any criticism of Christ is not.
Thank you for your blog.
Dan
I hear you loud and clear. It would be interesting though futile to point this out to the extreme religious right.
We are all “not smart”. Only the “smarter, not smart” realize it. You know what? The “not smarter” you get, the more interesting your writing.
Keep it up, but keep up the balance. I do occasionally come here for the descriptions of what others are doing to your glorious bottom.
It’s very much on the plan, albeit slowly, cause doctor’s are slow. But. >< Sorry for ranting. :) It's been One Of Those Years. For about the 33rd running. :)
I know. Me too. I’m an amazingly intelligent woman and yet from last December through May it struck me as a Good Idea to save money by taking my thyroid medication every three or four days instead of daily. (I thought that my body should get with the poor-and-uninsured program, cooperate and regrow its damned thyroid!)
My mother gets her ’scripts from Canada, too. I think there’s something funny about well-insured (heh) Americans filling their prescriptions in Canada and uninsured Americans (me), ordering medication online from India or from veterinary supply sites. (It’s so funny I can’t quite laugh.)
Use your “smarts” better, go for wisdom.
Why is it so much easy to say than it is to do?
Hindsight is 20/20, isn’t it? We live, we screw up, we learn.
Amen for wisdom … and cleverness. Far more useful.
As for those full of opinions and soap boxes … you are correct – SO not worth your time.
AAG – I used to be like you. :) When I read something that was so obviously stupid and hate filled I used to get up in arms, and drive myself insane tilting at windmills. I used to let these things bother me to the point that it was controlling my life. And I finally let them bother me to the point that they nearly destroyed my life – and I’m not being dramatic or exaggerating. I wound up having to change my name and leave my home because of the harassment and anger and … honestly because of stupid things I did in my righteous anger. Don’t let that happen to you.
Please. It’s so NOT worth it. There are stupid, intolerant, hateful, ugly, nasty, stupid (did I say stupid already?) morons all over the Internet. You’ll never change their minds, you’ll never get them to listen to reason because they’re too stupid to reason with. (Did I mention they’re stupid?)
Deep breath for you, hug your children, hug your partner and apologize for whatever, and remember that you’re not alone. :)
Thanks Kara. I’m only to the point of low muttering to the screen. I don’t think it will get past that. :)